Make A Way

What the enemy meant for evil, He will make a way. Impossible is what you do.

This song popped up on my TikTok today while I was doing my "doom scroll" to try and quiet my brain and everything that's bouncing around inside of it.

Today was our son, Luca's, birthday and we were so happy to be able to spend the day with him. He is such a joyful, kind, intelligent and super funny kid. I am forever grateful to be his momma. Hearing him ask to play with me always melts me into a puddle. However, when he was leaving I stayed with Lily and Q went with Mrs. Denise to help put him in the car. My heart broke when Q got back to the room so distraught because Luca was clinging and crying to go home with daddy and mommy.

After being dealt the hand we were this past week, today was truly the only day so far that I have felt so doom and gloom. How do parents divide their time when they are faced with these kinds of situations? It makes me see my parents and my childhood in a different light. My sister was older when I was diagnosed with T1D (Type 1 Diabetes). I wonder if she ever felt like my parents "left" her. I know Luca is so young and so is Lily, but it breaks our heart to see our little boy yearning for us. I also wonder how my parents did it. The strength it takes to focus on a medically complex child while also showing your other child attention. How do parents do it? This is so hard.

This song has given me some peace today while all these concerns jumble in my brain.

I wont fear tomorrow, 'cause you're already in it. I know you've got this too. Nothing is too hard for you. Impossible is what you do.

I pray that if you are also struggling with fear and anxiety of what is to come, that you are reminded that God is already there. He knows what is coming so you don't have to worry. I pray that if you are struggling in parenthood to divide your time, that you lean into the Holy Family. Parenthood is tough but so is our God. He will hold you in the struggle and help guide you through it.

The sickness is for His glory. That trial is for his glory. He's still making ways. It's not something we just read about. It's not just something I've heard, preached about, He's still making ways.

Lord, I ask that you remind us that these trials and difficult times that seem to always find their way into our lives, help bring glory to you. As difficult as it is for us to push forward, it's hard for you to see your children hurt and struggle. I pray that those reading, use their struggle to glorify you. To find you and seek you in the valley's. That you give them the strength to stand firm in your promises.

I've seen him open doors and perform miracles. He is still making ways in our lives.

If you have seen him open doors and move mountains, you should testify.

Our testimonies, although sometimes seem small to us, may be a big help to others.